My first week of 2021 felt almost uninspiring. Then I remembered that my word for this year is Change and I didn't like it either. Everything was different. Normally, money and task completion drives my goals. I recognized that this year the quality of time will drive it. I was uncomfortable, like hanging in mid air with no place to land.
My eyes welled up as I thought about it more. I recognized that I was afraid. God in His love sent a scripture to me "Perfect love casts out all fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." - 1 John 4:18. I asked myself "What is the origin of love?" The answer came "God is love". I thought about it some more, so God casts out all fear. I felt such peace come over me as I gave my fears to God in prayer.
I realized what I am doing is not easy for me. I'm breaking old habits in how I did things and performed to have a better quality of life. Not quantity in life, but quality of life.
When I thought about it some more, I marvelled at what I learned in one week and how much of it I retained. This week, I am pulling back the reigns on my old high performance self to see what God does.