Updated: Nov 10
I have been thinking a lot about the journey of my spiritual growth and the things I have not shared.
I was born into a Christian family. This does not mean that I understood the things of God. I wish there was more engagement and conversations about who God really is, what was I supposed to do about Him, for Him, how do I even reach Him? Is He for real? The one thing that I did as a child was I would have conversations with God in my head because I was told that He hears and sees everything. I really didn't know that He was always seeing, listening and answering.
My journey took me through experiencing different religions and methods of finding God. I did this when crisis hit my life. I wanted quick answers from God to take my pain and horror away and I would search for Him everywhere. I inquired into different religions and beliefs but didn't find Him there. I did things to search for Him because I wanted answers, like engagement in regression therapy.
One day in 2012 I had a miraculous encounter with Him as I was going to work. When God shows up in your life, you will know that it is Him. Everything that He tells you, you will remember. He spoke to assure me of what was happening. He didn't command me to do anything, but in that time that I had with Him, He very wisely changed my life. He sees us seeking Him, but we can also choose to forget Him. Jeremiah 29:13 describes the journey well "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." It was only with this journey of seeking Him with all of my heart and not giving up that I would find Him indeed and learn who He really is.
This is a picture of me taken 5 years ago in the place where the encounter happened. I love visiting this place every year on that day it happened and celebrating the new me.