The Pain, the Heartache and the Blessing
Updated: Nov 14, 2022
I am sitting here, staring out at that gorgeous Atlantic ocean, feeling the 23 degree Celcius sun on my skin, sitting on the patio where it's perfect and I am in awe. I almost can't believe the view and the experience of being here. I love it so much that I decided that I will stay longer.
I asked myself "What did it take for me to get here?" The answer came. It was not the decision to sell the house and almost everything I owned to live the way that I am. The decision was made much further than that. It was God's decision that I would be born in the country that He put me in with the family that I have. The experience of leaving Trinidad and Tobago behind was painful for me for the first 5 years of being in Canada. I grieved about Trinidad, but God had a plan.
In Canada, it was all of the experiences I had, the responsibility of being single for a long time, the heartache of my life being shattered by divorce and the glory of the blessing when God picked up the shattered pieces and did something with it.
It also took the courage to say "No" to where I was in life when I knew that I did not belong where I was. I just knew that I was in the wrong place and life had to be different. When I quit my job in 2015 because of heartache and unhappiness, I didn't say "I quit" to me. I said a big resounding "YES" to whatever else could be possible in my life.