I woke up today and felt like asking God to show me something to confirm He knows I am here, He sees me and is listening. I once asked Him for a rainbow which He provided. Today I asked for something like that, it must be very specific and unexpected. At lunchtime I saw Ernest walking down the driveway with a most gorgeous bunch of red roses. It was so beautifully put together. It was not store bought. They were more like the flowers I would like - wildflowers that are in a beautiful bunch but not perfectly aligned. He handed it over with a hug and kiss and said it was from the neighbour. She picked it from her garden for me. It's so gorgeous, I can't stop looking at it. I wondered why I would receive this as I've done nothing for them, but then I remembered what I asked God and thanked Him.
A long time ago I had a similar incident with God. I was going through a very difficult time and one particular day, I had had it with everything, everyone and with life. I wasn't going to kill myself. I felt so broken and didn't have the strength to put one foot in front of the other to keep going. I remember telling God that today a feather could literally knock me over. I did not know what to do or think next. My mind was in a battle with all of the thoughts of my issues and how to resolve them. The only thing I could muster up to say that morning was something quite random. I said out aloud "I want flowers". I wished someone would just send me a flower. I don't know why. It wouldn't solve my problems, but I wanted a flower or flowers and I did not want to buy it for myself.
Later that evening I attended a class at church. I was telling my spiritual father, Richard how low I was feeling. As he was listening, a lady in our class walked up to me and handed me a spectactular bouquet of beautiful orange lilies. She said that all day she had this message that I needed flowers, so she bought me a bouquet of the prettiest lilies.
After these two experiences, what can I possibly say about God, except how amazing and great He is?! I've been going through many things and endless changes and while I feel strong, I recognized that my body is feeling some of the stress. Every time I've prayed to God about what I am going through He has been showing me Matthew 6:26 "Look at the birds. They don't plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren't you far more valuable to Him than they are?" Yes, heavenly Father. This is the truth. Amen.